The inner marriage

Dear Journal,

I have always been fascinated by this phenomenon of dispersion, in which a single ray of light breaks down into a rainbow. How can a unity suddenly fragmented offer us such diversity? During refraction, light changes direction and crosses the surface separating the two media. But once the division has taken place, how can true unity be found again?

Throughout my life I have explored different colours. To me, they are a symbolic expression of Life, and over time I discovered that I carried within me the nuances of each colour, the shadows of each expression. It is by recognising them, accepting them, loving them and fully integrating them that, from this play of colours, the lightness and purity of a white light appears in my heart.

Believe me, it takes courage to set out to explore the different aspects of one’s personality. And above all, it takes a lot of love. They say love is blind, but it is the only one that sees beyond appearances. This path leads me to bring beliefs to light, in order to let go of them. And it is at that moment that the grieving process begins.

First comes denial: I refuse to see this part of me, I struggle, the split forms. Then begins an emotional descent into the weight of the belief. The whirlwind of emotions heightens my growing sense of instability. I bargain with myself, with Life. And I become aware that this belief is the source of an inner dilemma, a psychic blindness depriving my mind of its true freedom. Step by step, I move towards its dissolution, I take off my glasses.

Then one day, an inner marriage is celebrated. Two nuances unite to give birth to a luminous colour. A new path then begins, starting with a phase of rebuilding. I do not believe in miracle recipes or magic wands; that is not the human experience. Cultivating union takes time, resilience and learning about oneself. And it is at the heart of this garden that the gift of the ordeal appears. It is by building this Eden that together we will find Peace.

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